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I'd rather be the Cinderella that was never saved,

because the day she met her prince,

was the day she gave her heart away,

To a life so cliche...

I'd rather be the Rapunzel that stayed up in her tower,

with a fire breathing dragon guarding, hour after hour,

waiting by,

the window sill,

tears in my eyes...

Because every time I'm taken away from my hell,

it seems that a new one gets made,

And every time, it seems my broken heart is mending,

I have to burn my happy-ending...

I have to burn my happy-ending...

I'd rather have my heart locked away and kept safe,

Than out in the open,

getting beat-up by the rain...

I'd rather never love again and cut off all my ties,

Than live through all that was pretend,

And soak up all the lies,

The lies,

that put the tears back in my eyes...

Because ever time I'm taken away from my hell,

it seems a new one gets made,

And everytime, it seems my broken heart is mending,

I have to burn my happy-ending...

I want to break your heart,
I want to hurt you,
I want to tear you apart,
I want to desert you.

I want to rip you to shreds,
I want to strangle you,
I want to leave you for dead.
I want to mangle you.

I want to make you cry
I want to kill you,
I want to make you die,
I want to shrill you,

I want to bring you to end,
I want to doctor you,
I want to bring you offend,
I want to slaughter you.

The Deeper I Cut,
The More I Bleed,

The Worse I Feel,
The More I Need,

For You To Just,
Be Here With Me...

And Not Be With Her....

The More You Talk To Her,
I See,

The More You Seem,
To Ignore Me,

And That's What Makes,
The Jealousy...

Her Name I Curse...

I'll Be Fine, I Know,
It's Your Life, And It Shows,
Cause I Could Smile,
When I Was With You...

And The Scars Dig In,
And They Are Traced,

Blinding My Eyes Up,
With Thin Lace,

For The One Thing,
I Cant Bare To Face,

Your Rejection...

To Me You Just,
Can't Be Replaced,

So Don't Tell Me,
It Was A Waste,

But At Least,
I Got A Little Taste,

Of Perfection...

I'll Be Fine, I Know,
It's Your Life, And It Shows,
Cause I Could Smile,
When I Was With You...

Blood Pools,
On My Floor...
It Seems I Don't Exist Anymore,
Blood Pools,
On My Floor,
I'll Hide It...

Blood Pools,
On My Floor,
It Seems My Heart Has Broken,
Ruined, Slashed and Torn,
Blood Pools,
On My Floor,
I'll Hide It...

I'll Be Fine, I Know,
It's Your Life, And It Shows,
Cause I Could Smile,
When I Was With You...

Gerard’s p.o.v.

I set my papers by the clock on the table next to my bed.

Mikey sat and turned to face me, he put his elbows on his knees, and slouched over with his head in his hands.

“It sounds like the fighting died down a bit, yeah?” Mikey was staring at the pile of papers I just collected.

He sighed, “I dunno, maybe.”

I laughed at his very delayed answer,

“What?” he asked now looking up at me.

“Dude, you took like a whole minute to answer...” I paused, “Are you really that curious to look at them?” I said smirking at him.

“Actually… yeah… I am.” He said looking over at the small pile again.

 “Stop dreaming Mikes, I never let people see my stuff before it’s done… you know that… but how can I say no to those eyes,” I said smiling.

He looked up at me again, with one eyebrow raised.

“Here, I’ll make you a deal.” I said grabbing my papers carefully.

Mikey perked up, and sat up strait, I smiled at his hopefulness.

“You can see my art if …you give me your glasses.”

He narrowed his eyes at me, and slumped down again. I laughed , I knew he couldn’t see shit without them.

“Gerard , you’re such a smart ass…” he said looking down at his lap,

“I know,” I laughed at him again…

Then everything just fell silent, and we sat there breathing in sequence.

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"Gerard..." I heard a light voice say.

"What?!"  nearly yelled, and there was mom, smiling at me throught the beam of sunlight,

"Oh sorry, I guess I fell back asleep," I told her, rubbing my eyes awake.

Mikey was passed out at the other end of my bed,

"I guess we both passed out like half an hour ago," I said leaning over to shake him awake.

"Well you both you both better get up," she said pushing the hair out of my face,  which was kind awkward, then I realized, something mush have happened with him.

Mikey was to stubborn to budge, "Mom, what happened with umm... him.." I would never call him Dad.. or Father, or any other pet name you're suppose to call your Mom's spouse.

“Not much, Gerard…but I think he’ll be out of the house for a week or two”

I knew that wasn’t the whole truth, because he’s always out of the house for a fucking “week or two.”

“Good…” I looked up at her, and she kissed my forehead.

“Start getting ready, honey…and wake up your brother,” she smiled as she walked past my bed and closed the door behind her.

She always seemed happier when he was gone, he’s such a bastard… Mikey doesn’t know what mom had to put up with before he was born,  so he just thinks they’re both bad, but I know she cares, and I know she’s trying to take care of us… I’m glad she got that fucking restraining order before Mikey was born… he didn’t have to go through all the abuse, and anger that I did, and I hope he never does…

Frankie’s p.o.v.

“Somebody fucking shoot me please,” I whispered to myself as I pulled my backpack onto my lap, and wrapped my arms around it.

“What?” my mother said, I knew she didn’t really care, she was to focused on getting me, there on time. My words couldn’t possibly impact her that much.

“Nothing,” I responded. I couldn’t help but glare at the dull, dirt colored building, in all its glory.

The Jocks, Preps, and Scene-kids, waiting to beat me to a bloody pulp, The councilors, that never really council you, they just tell you to “keep your grades up” or “you need to focus on your future.” Right, like they actually care about our futures, not that I have one, The ignorant students, that can’t except anyone who isn’t just like them, The teachers, who are either bipolar, or just don’t give a shit, but honestly I can’t say I blame them.

This Place is My Hell.

And the routine begins, the cycle of being forced to attend a place where you are hated every. single. day.

I unbuckled my seat belt, and pulled my hood down to my eyes. My mother slowly stopped at the sidewalk as I looked away from the school and out the window to my right, I pulled the handle on the door and opened it to the cringe-worthy sound of Omg’s, girls texting, and other annoying high school conversation.

I sighed at what I was about to do, what I knew I had to do. I forced my torn and tattered converse the hit the concrete below me.

I grabbed my backpack, and turned to face my mother, “bye mom,” said with close to no emotion,

“Bye honey, have a good Monday,” she told me while putting on her mascara, as I took hold of the door.

“fer sure,” I said, pushing the door closed, it was a sarcastic statement in my head but, I didn’t say it that way.

I watched her drive off, in that white mini van, with the pearl finish… it almost felt like being abandoned, not in the sense of me missing her, but just feeling left… but, the unfortunate return of parental supervision would be  in just a few hours.

I tugged my headphones out of my pocket, pulled my hood down to my eyes again, and viewed the new freshman, I could just picture the torture they would be receiving in a matter of hours, especially the halfway goth girl in the back, she hid her face under her hood, but no guy would wear their hair that long on the first day of school. At first glance she was nothing special, but maybe someone who’s not a jackass might be attending this school.

I walked from one end of the street to the other, music blaring, and watched the number 36 buss pull up,

“Clarissa…” I whispered to myself as I glared hatefully as the bus…

[ Kay so, this is my first attempt at a fanfic, obviously, I choose my most favorite band eva My Chemical Romance so here goes...]

Mikey's p.o.v.

 I woke up to the sound of them screaming again, their fight's drive me insane I swear.

I rolled over to my side and reached over to my glasses on my night stand, I slid them onto my face, I couldn't see shit without them. I blinked a few times and turned my digital alarm clock towards me. "Fuck..." I muttered, "6 o'clock really? They couldn't of waited till' seven at least? So much for god dammed courtesy." I threw my pillow to the wood floor, I was frustrated, some parents they are.

 I sat up, and stepped off my bed at is creaked from the weight lifting off of it. I wiped my mouth, and headed towards the hallway, I prepared myself for the yelling to get louder, even with these walls thin as paper they managed to block out some sound. I dragged my baggy, plaid pants, and my oversized tee-shirt, in the direction of my brother's room. I passed the living room, and cringed at the sound of them yelling, it didn't hurt so much anymore, just pissed me off, and they always had that fucking T.V. on. They didn't think that would actually drown out the sound did they? I watched them for a few minutes. The hallway was dark enough for me not to be seen, not that they would notice me much anyway. It wasn't that entertaining; I moved on and slipped my hands into my pockets.

 I stood about 3 feet away from My brother's door, I walked up as the floor creaked below my feet, And knocked on his door... No Answer. I opened it up enough to poke my head through, and there was Gerard, asleep, pencil in hand, sitting up against his backboard, charcoal sketched papers sprawled all over his bed, and various ones all over the floor. I opened up the door, slipped through, and shut it quickly, I noticed his room was far more sound resistant than mine, way more than mine.

I walked over to his bed, trying my best not to step on his artwork, and poked him, I knew I could wake him easy, he was a light sleeper, when it came to touch anyway.He turned his head away from me and towards his clock. "Nice, um... drawings Gerard," I said looking down at the sketchpad in his lap, they were quite disturbing, but... beautiful. There was one, of a skeleton of a butterfly

"Don't look at them, they're not done yet, Mikes" he said, eyes still closed.

 I pushed my glasses up to my eyes. Gerard yawned, and opened his eyes, "Six Mikes? Really?"

He said rubbing his eyes awake.

"Sorry, I just... Mom and Da-"

"Don't call him that, he is definably NOT a "Dad"" he interrupted, quickly turning his head toward me, with wide eyes.

"well... They woke me up, and I figured we could hang out until seven or something."

Gerard turned away from me again, and groaned, "Aw, Mikey..."

"Oh, shut up Gee, I'm bored as fuck... pwease?"

"Fine." Gerard scooted back, so he could sit up strait, and grabbed the papers, keeping them aligned so they wouldn't smear.

Another week, creativity is gone,
another hour, all hope is lost.
The finished, are unfinished,

Wishing chores would go away,
Praying,
that things might go and change.

Another minute, eyes glare my way,
another second, and I've left.
The unworked, are overworked.

I'm tired from nothing,
I'm tried of everything.

Puking isn't pleasant but it makes me pretty.
Cutting isn't fun, but it's an easy escape.

Taking credit,
Making creed,
Faking, let it,
Undo deeds.
Because its all the same to me.....
Because its what the world is made of.

I'm made of this,
I'm made of them,

I'm made of dirt, and lies,
I'm made of scaring skies,
I'll never accept our ties,
but I can't help but know it's there.

It exists.....
Its real............... real full of shit.

I'm just another
drastic, spastic,
superficial, plastic clone.

I'm alone,
On My Own.

But I chose this.
I made me, this way,
construction, from the finest scum.

Lies.

I'm made of nothing more,
Lies,
Let my head hit the floor,
Lies,
with rags, are over-worn
Lies.
and friendship's I have torn.

its all Copyright.
yet I still copy, right?

Yes.

Unoriginal,
with the help of fake friends,
with the kind touch of a hand.
with the breaking of a band.
I cry, and know I cant.

Living in fear of other's minds,
Wondering what could be hidden inside.
I shouldn't know, and that's why it hides.

I'm revoked.
I'm provoked,
I'm easily choked.
By the lies I hate most.

End. End it.
I beg you, to finish me.
I ask you to just leave.
so I can't lie.
I won't be so torn inside.
I could gouge out my sorry eyes.
and burn all that is mine.

I wish I could tare this city down,
Watch them all f*cking drown,
then I could listen to the sound,
Of them screaming, the death of their town.

I swear, I would slit all their throats,
Set them a blaze, then they'd take note,
of all the pain they caused me so,
My smile then, could finally show..

I really want, to watch them bleed,
to kill them off, would be the key.
I'll Let them taste MY reality,
Let's see them begging on their knees.

The taste of lead in all their mouths,
The scene of their guts spilling out,
They'll have to time to even shout,
On this wall, their heads I will mount.

Oh, and they'll look so pretty,
this is equal to what they did to me,
this is fair, it was meant to be,
and I hate them entirely.

The bloodbath I left of this town,
just corpses left, lying on the ground,
I killed them all, no one's around.
finally, Silence, yes, there's no more sound.

But me, they're bones under my boots,
a few hanging from windows, by my noose.
This was the ending they chose to choose,
So I just did what I must do.

I'll walk to the next place like this,
with Equal value.... None of it.
I'll raid until, its all shattered bits,
Because no body cared, when I was a kid.

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This is about no one wanting me as a child, and no one caring that about my opinions, and ideas....

and though, its a short fall.
it's a long ride,
it looks like this will be
the last time I see you again,
at least for a while...
it takes moments to kick in,
this poison.

I now, you not gonna return.
so it looks like this will be
the last time I see you again.
Might as well walk another mile,
pasted the rest stop hours ago.
Because this pain is just moving to slow...

And, I know you'd never know.
Just what your words ment to me,
I resent, what I spent.
taking time to waste it later.
Could you see, this mirrior, torchures me,
I honestly hate Her.

I'd wish to waste away alone.
because it looks like this will be,
the last time I see you again.
oh it looks like this will be,
the last time you see my face...
are you proud,
that you built me up, to tear me down.
I couldn't ever stand the sound..
of your suttle voice telling me lies.

I love you, could never be true,
for I love nothing, only you,
only you, would waste your time,
picking me up and telling me lies.
Though its a long ride.

Might be the first day of my life,
but the last time I see you again,
Again, you try,
to lie,
say "you're mine"
The last cry,
and I died...

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This is about me commiting suicide, and seeing the world for the last time...

Random song I wrote....It sucks I know =_=

Can't I just,
Break out,
Cry out,
Sell out,
Die out?

Can't I just go?

Cause You know,
I know,
They know,
We Know.

I'm Worthless,
To This.

I'm Nothing,
Something,
Never.
Trusting.
oh No.

When I'm done,
You're done,
They'll know,
We're gone.

and We're Gone.

So Save Me, You Never thought that you could,
Change Me, I Know you never could,
Behave Me, And Now you should feel Ashamed....
I Stayed.

Decay Me, Corrode My Body and just,
Tame Me, So Now you're calling me,
Insane... Me?, And I can't just stay the same.
I Changed... Did I Change?...

Can't I just
Leave you,
Beg You,
To Stay,
Then Need you.

Is that Allowed?

Can't I just,
Want you,
Please you,
live to tease you.

Get louder now,
Just F*cking Shout.

Can't I,
Build up my Tower,
Then Burn it down.

To the ground.

Can't I Just,
blindfold Me
and live on sound?

But there's no sound.

So Save Me, You Never thought that you could,
Change Me, I Know you never could,
Behave Me, And Now you should feel Ashamed....
I Stayed.

Decay Me, Corrode My Body and just,
Tame Me, So Now you're calling me,
Insane... Me?, And I can't just stay the same.
I Changed... Did I Change?...

When you were gone I choked about it.
So when you're here We joke about it.
I Always thought you noticed this,
That I'm no longer in your buisness...

And you can wish on many stars,
But your dreams never take you that far.
our memories just leave us scarred.
Today I'm falling from your Arms.

Please Save Me, You Never thought that you could,
Change Me, I Know you never could,
Behave Me, And Now you should feel Ashamed....
I Stayed.

So Save Me, You Never thought that you could,
Change Me, I Know you never could,
Behave Me, And Now you should feel Ashamed....
I Stayed.

Decay Me, Corrode My Body and just,
Tame Me, So Now you're calling me,
Insane... Me?, And I can't just stay the same.
I Changed... Did I Change?..

part 3 - General Songs)

1. What you'll sing in the shower.
I Write Sins Not Tragedies - Panic at The Disco
{ Lol Somtimes}

2. Sex song.
I Never Told You What I Do For a Living - My Chemical Romance { lol that would be fun... "I'm So Dirty Babe!"}

4. Reminds you of your best friend (female)
I'm Not Okay - My Chemical Romance { Ha True}

5. Driving Song.
Thats What You Get - Paramore {not my first choice but u know...}

6. Anniversary Song
Box Full Of Sharp Objects - The Used { Okay thats Fucking awsome!}

7. Funeral Song
Leave it Alone - Operator Please { Well... whatever...}

8. First Slow Dance
Smother Me - The Used { Awww... thats gorgeous}

9. Last slow dance.
My Immortal - Evanescence { *tear* ...}

14. Song you'll hear when you wake up.
Devolve and Decay - Hawthorne Heights { thats pretty likely}

15. 100th song you'll hear on a roadtrip.
The Jetset life is Gonna Kil You - My Chem { One of the best driving songs and we get to hear Gerard speak spanish RIGHT ON!!}

16. First song you'll hear on a roadtrip
Miracle - Paramore { thats very very likely}

17. Elevator song.
Desert Song - My Chem { Thats an awesome Elevator song its like, perfect.}

18. First house party song.
My Way Home is Through You - My Chem { hehe good head banging song.}

19. Song you listen to when you're depressed.
Light Sleeper - Hawthorne Heights { Yep Yep}

20. Song you listen to when you're happy.
Blood- My Chem { Lawl Ya. i love it its makes me happy!}

21. Song you listen to when you feel like dancing
Let it Rock - Kevin Rudolf { Yes lol guilty pleasure}

22. Song you listen to when you're relaxing.
Demolition Lovers - My Chem { Hmm depending on my mood.}

23. Song you listen to when you're chilling with the boys
Taste of Ink - the Used { XD oh ya, we all sing it in the car!}

24.Song you listen to when you're chilling with the girls
American Idiot - Green Day { Yes Totally}

25. Parents Anniversary Song
Dance Inside - All American Rejects { uh... my mommy's not married and my dad, wait scratch that, he could never take that much responsibility, is a fucking ass so no... I'll dance with my mom :D Yay! I would dance with my mommy to this lol}

Okay So yay I'm done! its your turn i want to read them so hurry your ass up!

(part two : Life)

1. What is your love life like?
All We Know - Paramore { All We Know is Falling... just lovely...my next bf is gunna break up with me?} *tear*

2. What is sex with you like?
This is the Best Day Ever - My Chemical Romance {No- F***ing WAY! XD}

3. What's your life motto?
Revolution - Across the Universe { :D SO True!!!}

4. What do your parents think of you?
Eyes Lash Curlers and Butcher Knives - Jeffree Star {Yay! My Mommy thinks I'm a Fucking Star!}

5. What does your best friend really think of you?
Strawberry Fields Forever - Across The Universe {aww thats sweet, shes so understanding}

6.What's your favorite hobby?
I'm The Walrus - Across the Universe {what? well I do like sitting on cornflakes XD COO COO CACHO!}

7. What's the worst thing about you?
Thank You For the Venom - My Chemical Romance {Well thats kinda true....}

8. Describe your mind.
Lithium - Evanescence {... Really?.... REALLY?!}

9. How will you die?
Something - Escape the Fate {you've got to be kidding me....}

10. How does your crush/S.O. feel about you?
Give unto Me - Evanescence {Oh Jagger... Take My Pain Away... *tear*...}

11. What is your wedding going to be like?
t's Not A Fashion Statement, It's A Deathwish - My Chemical Romance{thats kinda a good and bad thing :D}

12. What about your honeymoon?
Clocks - ColdPlay { aww thats kinda cute... in a weird way...}

13. Describe the last day of your life.
Across the Universe - Across the Universe {oh thats just beautiful... I cant wait for that day}

14. Why does life suck?
Emo Kid - Adam and Andrew { LAUGH MY ASS OFF!!!}

15. Why does life rule?
When you Were Young - The Killers { Yay memories :D}

16. What will you be famous for?
After the Fall - Metro Station { umm what}

17. Describes the worst day of your life.
Snow White Queen - Evanescence {Yes I wouldn't want to know how some of the things i said hurt people like that...}

18. Describes the best day of your life.
On My Own - The Used { sigh.... words could not describe how much this song touches me....}

19. What are you keeping from the world?
Going Under - Evanescence {Makes sense ... I do tend to keep my rage and sadness inside...}

20. Describes your life right at this very moment.
I've Just Seen a Face - Across the Universe { lmao... seriously?}

21. How you feel about life right now.
All My Lovin - Across the Universe {True True....}

22. How you feel about your best friend (female).
When it Rains - Paramore {... oh well thats kinda true..}

23. How you feel about your best friend (male).
Find a Way - The Used {No one shall know that i secretly love him!!!}

24. How your sister/brother feels about you.
For a Pessimist I'm Pretty Optimistic - Paramore {Well mabey true for my sister... shes disappointed in me for reason I'd prefer no to share}

25. What your future job will be.
Pretty. Handsome. Awkward. - The Used { uh, what?....so I'll be pretty handsome.... and awkward....>.< fun }

26. How your best friend feels about you (female)
Jenny Was a Friend Of Mine - The Killers { My Names not Jenny but I'll Take it!}

27.How your best friend feels about you (male)
Two For My Seconds - Operator Please { very true... thats kinda freaky how true it is}

28. What you'll do today?
Box Full Of Sharp Object - The Used { well thats a nice thought... But I doubt it!}

29. How the day will treat you?
Nine in the Afternoon - Panic at the Disco {Well that sounds extreamly fun!!!

30. Any Surprises?
Blackbird - Across The Universe {...? I love this song tho}

Go to your music player of choice and put it on shuffle. Say the following questions aloud, and press play. Use the song title and lyrics as the answer to the question. NO CHEATING I got this from a fellow mcr fan: Mikeymraz {buzznet}

1. How does the world see me?
Language Lessons -Hawthorne Heights {lol thats nice....}

2. Will I have a happy life?
But its Better If You Do - Panic at the Disco {... I Think thats a No}

3. What do my friends really think of me?
Situations - Escape the Fate {Okay this is just getting worse and worse for me lol}

4. Do people secretly lust after me?
I Want You - Across The Universe {lol Nuff Said}

5. How can you be happy?
Imaginary -Evanescence { -Confused-}

6. What should I do with my life?
Somebody Told Me - The Killers {... Still not getting it....}

7. Why must life be so full of pain?
The Day I Left The Womb - Escape the fate { Okay well that explains alot... for me at least}

8. Will I ever have children?
Cemetery Drive - My Chemical Romance {WHAT THE FUCK DOES THAT MEAN?!}

9. Will I die happy?
Hang 'em High - My Chemical Romance {uh what? .... -.- thats just not right}

10. What is some good advice for me?
Good Enough - Evanescence {God Dammit... well if u guys knew u would understand y thats so very true for me}

11. What is happiness?
Girl - Across The Universe { I think that Means Love...?}

12. What's my favorite fetish?
My List - The Killers... { Well.. well thats quite sad....}

13. How will I be remembered?
Lies - Evanescence {Oh well lovely...}

14. What is sadness?
Myspace Mixdown { WHY THE FUCK IS THIS ON MY MP3?!
.....well ya thats understandable that is quite sad....}

15. Why are you so gay?
We Might Fall Apart - Disco Ensemble { .....?}

There's something cold and blank
behind her smile
She's standing on an overpass
Waiting, another mile

You were from a perfect world
that threw away,
A Perfect Girl.

Flawlessly Flawed,
In herself,
But she was born,
as somebody else.

A pill to make you numb
A pill to take you back
To the world you're from,
and cause a heart-attack.

Muscle spasms, seizures.
They can be treated and dealt.
But all the bandages in this world
Won't save her from herself

Her mouth was empty, wrists cut
And she was waiting to fall,
Eyes closed, steady, ready to jump
Back to her world, as it calls.

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Alright, so this is about a girl, who feels alienated, and lost in the life she was born into, so she decides, shes going home [heaven] she feels as if she was perfect there, and here shes just imperfect, and she returns to her Angelic form...

I might do a sequel of this poem, yeah?  i think it migh be cool...

I was only 10 when it began
Late at night, when I was alone.
You preyed on my innocence and my trust.
How did I know it was wrong?

You did things so horrible to me,
My soul and body were bared.
What you did to that tainted girl
Left me feeling alone and scared.

You said it was to show your love
By taking my body for your use.
But now I know that what happened to me
Wasn't love; it was abuse.

All the things you did to me
Won't wash away with rain.
Nothing on earth will rid my heart
Of this never-ending pain.

I hope that you hurt as much as I do,
Or do you even remember what you did?
Nothing will make up for the pain you caused
When I was just a kid.

The physical scars you put on my body
Have since healed with time.
But my pain still shows on the outside
Whenever the young girl of me starts to cry...

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This is about my Ex, Jesse,  he raped me... twice... it wasn't pleasant...

Am I just fucking insane?,
that I could let you play this game,
for all the lies, lie in my name,
I hang my head, in expected shame.

Am I only so insane,
mentally unstable,
yet so god dammed tame,
I'll just let this settle, to rain,
but now, I'll hang my neck in shame.

But what do I know?
I'm fucking out of my mind!
Did you really think I was ever alright?
oh please Ship me off, to my ward tonight.

my Noose is as ready as the jacket is tight...
I can't stand these fucking flickering lights...
I can't stand these ignorant people in sight...
close me off from the entire humane frights.

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this one isn't very good but its how I've been feeling lately

I'm falling faster,
This is the last year,
Just a few more hours
Until we are
all alone

This never happens
Changing with fashion
Just a few more hours
Until we are unknown

Does it even matter?
With situations getting worse

Sleep thin,
Sleep well,
With this life,
We're set to fail

I just wanted you to know,
I think about you every night,
When I fall asleep,
You are in my dreams....

Just like in a movie,
The one you want to see,
With a happy ending.

This last letter,
written on black paper,
It never found her eyes,
Instead of Love...
They only saw dollar signs.

Sleep in,
Sleep well,
With this life,
We're set to fail

I just wanted you to know,
I think about you every night,
When I fall asleep,
You are in my dreams.

Just like in a movie,
The one you want to see,
With the happy ending....

But, there's no happy endings....

Leave these tears on my cheeks alone,
the stream never stops anyway.

Its so sad, when you're on your own,
and you can't help but dream of the day..

You'll leave the hell you're in,
but faith is wearing thin,
when all is left under your skin,
is the painful stare of sin.

I swear I'll die tonight,
by taking my own life,
and every single fright,
has dimmed my only light....

Even when I'm corroded,
I still doubt I'll be noted,
but at least they decoded,
the angle the bullet was from

When I'm no longer with you,
you will have no more issues,
no more use the the tissues,
because I'm already done...

so Mother, sing your Lullaby,
and Father, you were never there,
Brother, I will miss you dearly,
for my Sister, she never cared.

to Friends, who never betrayed,
to Death, who grasped my hand,
to Enemies, that made me this way,
to Life, I wish never began.

just how i was feeling today -sigh-

Sorry haven't been posting lately *cries* everything is so hectic here.... if u guys dont get it ak and i'll explain it lol, its kind of inside so there u go!!!